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What do you think about Life now?
Since the quarantine has happened I've been challenged in my heart and mind to find the answer to this question, "Is Life REALLY worth living?" One morning a few weeks ago, I lay in my bed wondering what Life is worth? This submersion caused by the covid19 pandemic has and is causing me to re-evaluate everything. What's so important about driving the most beautiful car, having more stuff than the next person, and wanting accolades from others or institutions? None of that shit seems vital at all. I wasn't a materialistic person, to begin with, but now I hold tighter to my views that  Life is not about stuff, accolades and positions! It's about how I love, perceive, and hold space for myself and others. It's how I honor and protect my energy from whatever and whoever tries to move me out of my peace. (Am I honoring me in this way? A few people come to mind to remind me that I still have work to do in this area of my life) It's about reconnecting with the silence that is so beautiful and sacred that it causes me to hear my intuition and The Creators' words. It's about knowing who I truly am as a spiritual being and learning to embrace and move forward on the road in which my spirit is guiding me. I needed this time to find out how out of tune I am spiritually and how in tune I am with what I believe my life is worth.
 
See, a few months ago, I relocated to another state to start a brand-new life! I was determined to leave toxic family and friends behind and begin to learn to live without the comforts of my old emotional friends (pain, regret, fear). I was sad and depressed. Faking like I was having the time of my life, I started to question whether or not my life was worth living! I mean, I didn't have family here or love; I found more pain than I expected. This made me want to run and hide in my home. I had the same redundant routines - eat, sleep, social media, T.V., and I worked from home. During this time in quarantine, I didn't feel Life was any different from what I was already doing- nothing, at least that is what I was telling myself. I was already hanging on by a thread emotionally. What I was really doing was grieving the old way of being, and it was crippling me. I wanted a new normal, but I didn't know where to start or how to start it.
 
Long story short, I told myself I was ready to die; I and I thought I accepted it.  Because I have an immune system that is challenged, I felt like I would die soon anyway with corona everywhere. I almost surely convinced myself that I was ready to leave this earth. However, my old friend fear taught me a lesson; I wasn't ready to die. By examining the “why” of my fear, I learned that I would not be fearful of death if I was ready to die. All of the anxiety and depression I felt for the past three months was actually a sign that I wanted to live! I didn’t realize this life changing lesson at first. I was trying to convince myself with words that I was prepared to go, but fear was showing me the truth. I wasn't ready. Fear taught me that I still wanted to live! I was lying to myself about being ready to go. Being afraid to die showed me that I still wanted to do be here, to do something here on earth.  I asked myself and The Creator, “What could I possibly want to do here alone?”  The answer I received was- Love Me. Get to know the higher me, not the me I thought I knew. I  could feel my spirit calling me deeper, but where? Here, right now, the present. I am learning to acknowledge, accept, allow and act on what brings me peace and joy. I needed to stop listening to the negative thoughts that create adverse emotions that drove me into a dark emotional space. I choose to cultivate the positive thoughts! I needed to stay in each present moment that presents itself to me, these moments that I keep taking for granted. This time has allowed me to slow down even more and be in the moment. 
 
This is what I found out...Sharon should to do what Sharon loves to do. What is that? I've always wanted a garden; I want to perform my poetry, continue to inspire others through writing and travel. Fear has been my worst enemy, but it has also taught me that I want to live!
 
So, here is what I believe about life now.
1. I believe that Life will continue, for how long I don't know, no one does. I am accepting of this.
2. I know now that if I don't love me with all of me, I will surely die of depression and a broken heart.
3. I know that a sunrise and sunset are the most beautiful things you can experience if you are present for these moments. 
4. I know that I Am My Family - I have a soul (higher self), mind, and body to take care of. What I need to survive and be happy is to ensure that I take care of ALL OF ME.
5. Emotional Pain will take you out if you allow it. For me staying out of depression means getting out of bed and doing one thing different every day. Simple shit! Nothing major at all. Stop trying to do the most. Hell, if I brushed my teeth, that was a huge accomplishment.
6. If they love you, they will SHOW IT, not just say it. Protect Your Peace at all costs! Period. If you don't have peace, LEAVE.
7. Words mean less now; actions mean a hell of a lot more!
8. The Creator is always here listening and waiting for your yes!
 
Q: Do you value Life more or less?
A: More. Life is precious. I don't overvalue stuff, with respect and gratitude for what I do possess.
Q: What will you do differently after quarantine, if anything?
A: Love me. Love me more. Protect my peace. Do what I love!
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​Everything wants to live... or so it seems.
You can cut the grass, and it will still grow back.
Did you kill the grass you cut?
If you dig up all the grass in a yard and dispose of that grass somewhere else, doesn’t that grass begin to grow again in its new location?
We can lay concrete for streets and sidewalks- but weeds and grass will find a way to grow between the cracks.
The grass just finds a new route of travel for growth.
The fruit and vegetables we eat, live. 
We can take a seed from fruits and vegetables, plant them, and they will grow.
When consumed, they provide life after their transformation.
We take the breath out of an animal to provide nourishment for humans.
However, we are now apart from what we have consumed; is it giving us life?...
When we take our last breath, do we really die, or do we transform?
We are energy.
Does energy die, or does it find a new route of travel to mutate, move, and maneuver to continue its journey?
Do we die or transform?
Does anything really die?

Since we have to JUST BE in the house, grab a copy of this paperback book or Ebook- Just Be: Reclaiming Peace, by Sharon Blake.
I started writing this book in 2018 to remind me to go within, get still, and be quiet to become aware of the messages I need to receive to live in peace. Learning to ”just be” hasn’t been easy for me, but I needed to reclaim my peace.
In these trying times, we may feel frustrated and become anxious; this book contains messages that have guided me through real turbulence in my life. Writing this book helped me maneuver through unknown days and nights, such as we are all experiencing today.
It's ok to unplug from social media, kick your legs up and grab a book!
Available on LifeChroniclesPublishing.com
Blessings!
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Just Be who you are created to be.
Be your authentic organic self.
Just be love and be loved.
 
Stay in present moments as much as possible,
To learn the lessons needed for your existence.
Being present is so much more than some new thing to do --
It is staying, responding and being fully aware of what is happening on the inside of you.
 
This moment right here nudges you, better yet, it is calling you to, “Just Be”
 
Be ok with, now .
 
Leave judgements outside.
Leave unhappiness.
Hell! Leave everything and the thought of everyone except you out of your,  Just Be moment.
Spend time with The Creator, God or whomever you wish to call your spirit guide.
 
Get still and quiet.
 
In these moments’ downloads are received, visions become clear, the fog dissipates, and blue skies arrive on the scene of our minds. I know I have circumstances that try to force me outside of my Just Be moments. Those circumstances are called life.
 
However, I will intentionally quiet the noise of my mind, silence all naysayers, rebuke - rebuke, and come back to the still quiet place where I can Just Be all to myself.
 
So, come with me if you will, to answer the call to simply, Just Be!

 

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I’m still trying to make payments on the mistakes I've made; note to self:
​  Once in a while, you allow guilt and shame to come and tell you that it’s time to make a payment for your mistakes. Some dues must be paid,” says, guilt and shame;” you are the responsible party. So, you must pay.”
The installments you have made requires you to allow those you’ve hurt to misuse and abuse you, as some form of settlement for the emotional pain you’ve caused them in the past. By doing this, you negate this fact: you have already paid the price for your mistakes with the lifestyle change you have created, you no longer have to punish you. I know you feel  awful, and the thought of you ever causing anyone pain gives you emotional grief, but your addiction would not allow you to feel anything at that time in your life. Dear, you were trying to cover up the pain that was placed in you by those who abused you. A pain that the little girl didn’t know how to survive. She buried that pain with drugs and alcohol. She did the only thing she was taught to do, survive by any means necessary. So, she did.
I believed that if I allowed myself to feel the pain, that I would die. I had to protect myself, so I ran and hid for 22 years.
I’m back now, and I've been clean for 9 years. I’ve changed my life to live free from the mental confines of my past abuse. I’ve not hurt any of you in the last nine years, but I have allowed you to hurt me because I felt I deserved it. I’m under the weight and pressure of the pain you are causing me now, and it is showing up as a heavy burden too massive for me to sustain. I must release myself from the influence of guilt and shame. I will put my punisher to rest and reclaim myself and peace.
I will do what I’ve been taught to do, only now in a healthier way. I will survive and thrive, and that means letting go of the guilt of you.
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​Uncertainties Cause Feelings of Anxiety. I wrote about this in my book, The Thought Detox: Breaking Free From A Negative Thought Life.

I was reading an article in O Magazine (Spring 2019 edition); a lady is giving a detailed account of her PTSD. She is a hurricane survivor that made this statement, “We are trying to figure out how we deal with the ocean, which is a crazy thing. We will always be at risk.”

Uncertainties Cause Feelings of Anxieties.

I thought to myself, isn’t this just like all of us? Most of us have all been through some kind of trauma, and that trauma can feel like an ocean raging out of control that we are stuck in. It causes us to become uncertain and anxious in life. But what do we do?

Learning to acknowledge, accept, and allow what we cannot control can be very hard for individuals who are suffering from any form of mental or physical trauma. Experiencing this type of pain can cause individuals to live in a perpetual state of guardedness; this can feel like being on guard duty all the time, which is exhausting.

I now practice acknowledging, accepting, and allowing things to "just be." It has not been easy learning to trust in this life. However, I refuse to live in fear and allow fear to lead me to, nowhere. I choose to spend quiet moments with The Creator to learn to live free and with that comes the daily challenge of overcoming my fears! 
I choose freedom from fear! My prayer is that you do too!
​Sharon Blake