May is Lupus awareness Month

The cruel unknown mysteries of Lupus has plagued many of us. I mean the doctors don't really know how to diagnose you, I had several doctors tell me that there is nothing wrong with me or that they just couldn't seem to find anything. Finally a diagnoses Systemic Lupus is what they told me! I had no idea of the cause and to my surprise neither did the specialist. "Take your meds and when you have a flare up come back and and we will retest your blood," is what they told me. Well four years later the same prognosis remains. 
People don't understand how a perfectly normally looking individual could be in pain and agony. Sometimes you don't want to ask for help and other times you don't have a choice, you grin and bear the pain and fatigue of what you are dealing with only so not to burden loved ones with your disease. Some days are good and others are not but I am a survivor. So I keep praying and moving on, in hopes of the day that I get the call that says," Ms. Blake your test results show no sign of Lupus at all!"
My prayers are with my fellow lupus survivors today.